I just finished new moon and I really don't like Edward. And I'm starting to dislike bells for liking Edward. He's a fucking vampire so he's supposed to be alluring and convincing and blah blah and she knows that yet she still believes all of his bullshit. She only loves him because of his vampire traits and how he "loves" her which he only does ( Read more... )

My dream last night was layer out like a movie. Started with me on the ground in front of fantasy island in the rain just waking up and I started getting texts from someone who told me what happened to me the night before. I bought a blackberry and ran around hotels and stuff and there were dogs. Then everything from the night before happened to me ( Read more... )

Like, were supposed to write about what we know, but what if we only know it because we've read about it? Movies and songs and such count since they have a written basis usually. This is really baffling me and I'm having difficulty putting it into words I think. The human race studies history which is what has been recorded and has validity behind ( Read more... )

I'm finally reading the twilight books. And while, of course, I wish I could have an Edward and feel how he feels for bells and vice versa blah blah. But I also wish I could feel the pain and numbness bells feels now that he's gone just so I could know that I can feel that strongly and miss someone and also maybe to know that I loved someone that ( Read more... )

I thought about apologizing to marcy today and tried to come up with some way of justifying myself but no, I really don't want to be friends with her. Same with brian. I would love to call him out and explain some shit or attempt to get him to explain shit but no thanks, I don't want a friend who doesn't seem to even care. You don't like what I'm ( Read more... )

I had a really weird little anxiety attack on the skyway today. Traffic was super slow and I was like a sitting duck on the skyway, above I don't even know what. I just started freaking out. It was horrible.

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I can't sleeeep

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Last night my dreams consisted of girls from dance attempting to steal my car so I fought them all individually, driving my car from the backseat, driving to aunt pams then to dance, sneaking into the zoo and slaughtering animals and leaving them around, ex boyfriends, a Spanish packet, a bed frame and mattress to be dragged around, a fresh water ( Read more... )

I worked out for an hour today. It felt great. Sweating feels great. I have a free week at the gym and then I might get a membership for summer and of course I'm working out at vcu a lot. I have dance tonight too. I guess now I have ways to spend my alone time. I feel so much more motivated working out in a gym than in my house.

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I could have walked to payless and back to my car near target but I didn't. I could go for walks but I don't. I could go on bike rides but I don't.

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